So this year has been…interesting is a word that I can use and challenging on almost all parts of life. I guess I was quite naive in the beginning of this year when I was thinking that just because the vaccine had come to Sweden that it would automatically become a wonderful year where everything just kind of ..how do I say this in English without speaking ”Swenglish; so translating Swedish words to English right off, but in Swedish it would be Flyta på, so kind of like everything is on a roll, everything going to the right direction without you having to think about it, but I guess thats not how life works does it? Altho it would be kinda nice if the things that I am challenging myself in would just ”flyta på”…maybe I am rambelling on I don’t know..but this year has def been challenging on so many levels. I have worked on myself soo much which is really good but its also challenging..I graduated in January but it didn’t really feel like I was graduating because I had to do another course of placement right after my graduation, and that was supposed to be my last placement…but that course was soo tough and also I had a person in my life then that made it extra tough for me and frankly made me cry a lot during that period. So I didn’t pass that course, which devastated me buuut universe gave me a miracle and I was transfered to another department in that same preschool for when I was going to re-do that course (which I just finished last week) and all of a sudden everything felt and went so much better!

life is funny sometimes you know…and everything is leading you on the right direction in a mysterious way and you don’t realize it until you get there…

One thing that has been positive this year (of course there has been more positive things happening to me this year but this one is more worth mentioning) is that I have started climbing! I do it with a good friend of mine and her boyfriend (and a friend of his) and now recently a girlfriend of hers has joined us too! and I never thought in my life that I would be the type who would love climbing. I always thought that you would have to be really brave and that it was soo easy to hurt yourself when climbing but I couldn’t be more wrong…because its soo much fun and its challenging both in a physical way but also mentally, because all of your fears are inside your own head so you really have to trust yourself and your ability, and you have to trust your fears sometimes too, because sometimes you feel too tired to do a certain ”problem” (levels are called problems in this world) and then the best thing to do is to climb down even if you haven’t reached the top yet, and sometimes you have to rest a lot, and sometimes you feel too weak to do certain problems and at other times you are on top of the world and you really challenge yourself…and its social! and so much fun! and totally addicting. I do it like 2/week now and if I don’t do it for a long time then I miss it badly because its so much fun! and very corona safe I must add, its like 2-5 meters distance to everyone…
and two more things that I have to add, I would probably never have started climbing if it weren’t for Corona and me being bored and restless and longing for a new challenge that is just up to myself where no one judges me for if Im good or bad..so thank you Corona for this=)! And I have got to know new people because of my very good friend and I love getting to know new people! So thank you Emelie & Johan for that =)!

Now that I think about everything that has happened this year, good and bad, I don’t regret anything and everything has really made me a lot stronger version of myself like I said before, and it has made me happier too and made me focus on myself in a good way, what is really important to me and my needs, so now I am happy that everything that happened happened, because otherwise I wouldn’t be this strong and happy =) The photos are from early mornings at the preschool where I had my placement. Pretty nice huh? and having said that, this year has been pretty good to me after all…if you just look for the good stuff. So lets go 2021, you are kind of amazing in a different and slower way =)